JoeWriterMan Posted October 2, 2014 Report Share Posted October 2, 2014 I'm in. Ask away! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ken barber Posted October 2, 2014 Report Share Posted October 2, 2014 Lawrence, If you where face to face with your father at this very moment. What is the first thing you would say to him. Ken Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kyle Aarons Posted October 2, 2014 Report Share Posted October 2, 2014 Peter, Early on you said you thought your mother just knew what you were. When did you first get that feeling from her and how was she different before and after? Just call me... Basically Been There. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JoeWriterMan Posted October 2, 2014 Author Report Share Posted October 2, 2014 Lawrence, If you where face to face with your father at this very moment. What is the first thing you would say to him. Ken Ken, good question. As you know John and his sons, Dale and his family, and Adam and his son to an extent... would never ever permit me alone in a room with my father, much less take me there to him. Nor would I voluntarily go to my father. There is no need. All that needed to be said was said during our recent phone conversation where he all but admitted causing or having caused the atrocities toward children deemed Undesirable. He said that my Aaron is an Undesirable which means I am one, too, because Aaron and I are soul mates until the end of time. One thing that I did not say to him via our man-made communication was this: love conquers evil. Lawrence. ken barber 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JoeWriterMan Posted October 2, 2014 Author Report Share Posted October 2, 2014 Peter, Early on you said you thought your mother just knew what you were. When did you first get that feeling from her and how was she different before and after? Just call me... Basically Been There. Hi Basically Been There, Before I answer your question, I want to make a clear distinction between Mother and Mom. Any fertile woman can give birth to a baby girl or baby boy. A mom loves her child no matter what. She will defend the child to her dying breath, even though the kid will hurt her from time to time, or do something that causes disappointment. She will defend the son or daughter until her dying breath. Peggy Blake is my Mom. Although she didn't give birth to me, she gave me everything I ever needed, and still need from time to time. She has this smile that melts my heart. And she freely gives of it. Tanya Jamison is my birth mother. She screwed some man. He ran off as soon as she told him that she was pregnant. I was a bother to her, until I got old enough where I could more or less fend for myself. I was 11 or 12 years old when we started pretty much avoiding one another. Which worked out well. Then she shacked up with a couple of perverts who took their liberties with me. Then she and my uncle Harley moved in next door to David and his Dad, Jim. I never directly told Tanya 'what' I am. She made several assumptions. I'd never had friends before David and Jeremy. I was very discrete meeting my hormonal needs after lights were out. Because my bed was broken down and the springs were sprung, I would lay on the floor to keep from making any noise. Everything changed the night David and Dad invited Tanya, Harley and me over to dinner to welcome them into the neighborhood. David and I, after we'd cleaned up the dinner dishes, went up to his room where we played and had some serious fun on his Wii... I'd never played it before. I say that he let me win, but he argues back saying that I beat him fair and square... but this is beside the point. The point is that we didn't do anything that would arouse any sort of suspicion, because there was nothing suspect. I had my secret, the one that I promised would go to the grave, forever and ever amen. David wasn't even sure of himself - he was still dealing with his physical challenge. Anyway, we got home that night and the battle was on. They tag teamed all sorts of accusations onto me. The more I denied them the more physical they became... until I couldn't take it anymore. I still didn't say anything but when Harley took me to their bedroom... I was able to fight back to win that battle, but four days later lost a war. Jim would later tell me that while I lost 'that' war, I was still alive to see another lifetime. That another lifetime has had its challenges, big challenges, very big challenges, but I now know that there are people who like and or love me for who and what I am right here, right now, today, this moment. While evil was and is still present in the world, it does not define me as a human being. Does this answer your question? Peter Blake Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kyle Aarons Posted October 2, 2014 Report Share Posted October 2, 2014 Peter, it's "basically" again. I guess you touched on a lot, so I will say you kind of answered my question. I was more wonderering what made her think you were "that way", but this leads me to my second question, one I am much more familiar with. Why didn't you just run away? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JoeWriterMan Posted October 2, 2014 Author Report Share Posted October 2, 2014 Peter, it's "basically" again. I guess you touched on a lot, so I will say you kind of answered my question. I was more wonderering what made her think you were "that way", but this leads me to my second question, one I am much more familiar with. Why didn't you just run away? Hi, Isn't there a Biblical reference saying that an apple doesn't fall far from its tree? I did run away. Many times. Oahu is a small island... there are only so many places a person can run to. And the island is not a place where one can literally live off the land. I like pineapple but... my stomach rebels at 'too much'. I also like seafood... but prefer it cooked. More importantly, I returned hoping 'this' time would be different, that maybe we could once again experience the few times we'd had where everything was or seemed to be 'okay'. I could write for hours about why abused people return to their abuser. But, other professional people as well as victims themselves have already done so. I have no idea why she thought that I was 'that way'. It's not something that we sat down and talked about. At this point in my life - I no longer care one way or another. Peter Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kyle Aarons Posted October 3, 2014 Report Share Posted October 3, 2014 Skeeter, How is it you walk around is such horrible clothing when you have coke in your pocket. Take it from someone who knows, I'd be wearing so good shit if I had enough clout to have coke in my pocket. Now if I can just figure out how to get out of Viper territory with nothing but boxers and a twenty dollar bill.... Joey Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JoeWriterMan Posted October 3, 2014 Author Report Share Posted October 3, 2014 Skeeter, How is it you walk around is such horrible clothing when you have coke in your pocket. Take it from someone who knows, I'd be wearing so good shit if I had enough clout to have coke in my pocket. Now if I can just figure out how to get out of Viper territory with nothing but boxers and a twenty dollar bill.... Joey My dearest Joey, Not 30 minutes ago we shared all that we have to share in every conceivable way - spiritual, emotional, physical. Every time we make love our connection just gets that much stronger. Right this second I see you sleeping peacefully and contentedly in my bed with your toe peeking out from beneath the covers. I see your chest deeply, rhythmically and regularly rising and falling with each breath. You are very much right here with me, Babe. And, besides that, my sweetheart, the closest you will ever come to a pair of boxers is those puppy dogs, Charlie and Arlie, your Mom and Dad brought home right after the confrontation with your older brothers. They are so ugly that they are cute! And you know it. So there. About the shit. I feel a bilge of bile rising in the back of my throat as I think back to our former lives. Here it goes. I've never told anyone, not even you. I did not and do not want to break your heart. I got the shit for you, Joey, so that you would not put yourself into dangerous situations. Skeeter Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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